Recently, I have found myself doing everything but writing: checking email for the fifth time, watching YouTube videos, texting people stupid one-liners, thinking up new characters and (but not limited to) staring at the last sentence I wrote in my previous writing flurry.
I procrastinate for no good reason. It's already been established how much I like writing and how good it makes me feel. So why am I putting it off?
Maybe there's a part of me that thinks I'm just not good enough to be writing. I've won some competitions and been short listed for others, so a lack of confidence is just not logical. But then, I once declared myself "outsane", so clearly logic has no place here.
However, what I think it boils down to is a lack of motivation. Not a lack of motivation to write, but a lack of motivation to finish the story. This specific story is the first one I want to try to get published and once it's done, I don't have to write it anymore. And I really enjoy writing this particular story. I must do; why else would I get caught up in it after typing the next new word at every session?
Perhaps I should look at it differently. I am motivated to write, therefore I should be motivated to finish the story. Right?
P.S The Internet died on my ancient laptop so I had to do this on my phone. Technology both frustrates and amazes me.
