Thursday, 24 September 2015

Rule Breaker

Taking a break from big project writing at the moment. I was going to turn this into a short story but kind of lost interest after finishing the first part.

Photo credit: NASA
Rule Breaker

Spirits are not supposed to interfere with mortal lives. That was one of the Rules. Deshi knew the Rules well: it had been there when they had agreed upon them. And yet, though it served its role adequately in the cosmos without any complaints – not like Ophir who was now overseeing the mortals from inside the Earth – it wanted something more. It wanted, and it waited.
From its vantage point among the stars, Deshi watched the Earth. It watched as humankind learnt to defend itself from threats, develop tools to fashion as weapons and utilities. Other Spirits thought Deshi strange, for there was an entire universe for them to observe and there were events out there considerably more amusing that watching an entire species take thousands of years to discover fire, of all things. The humans were unfathomably stupid, the other Spirits decided, and Deshi was a fool to think them interesting.
Deshi didn’t listen to the other Spirits. They didn’t understand what it saw in the humans: that despite their stupidity and poor hygiene they were a remarkably resilient species. They survived natural disasters, cosmic war damage, famines. No matter what was thrown at them the humans would pick themselves up, dust themselves off, and come back again the next day for more. Deshi fell in love with the humans.
And that was against the Rules.

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“Deshi, the other Spirits are laughing at you.”
Deshi did not take its focus off the Earth and yet it could see Etanah looming above it.
“Let them laugh,” said Deshi. “They are foolish.”
You are foolish,” said Etanah. “Foolish for thinking those pathetic humans are worthy of your attention. If they could see us, they would worship us more than they worship the ones they call Kings.”
Deshi chose not to engage with Etanah’s conversation, gesturing instead to the scene she was concentrating on below.
“You see these humans? They have nothing. They must give all their coins to tax collectors and have sold their first-born child to a trader. They have much to be depressed about, and yet still they keep in good spirits so as to not worry their younger children. They are not pathetic. They are heroic.”
Etanah looked over at the Earth but all it could see was a deprived human family sitting in their own filth. Etanah sneered.
“If you must watch them, why not look over the cleaner ones?”
Deshi sighed: Etanah didn’t understand. None of them ever did.
“Do you not get bored, watching them struggle?” Etanah persisted.
“Never.”
Etanah moved away from Deshi, amazed that a Spirit could be this taken with the lowly humans. Etanah was already out of the Earth’s orbit when Deshi quivered.
Far below Deshi on the Earth, a baby’s cry was not answered. It rang out among the hills and yet nobody came to soothe the child. From the fresh blood glistening on his pink skin, Deshi could tell it was a new born somebody had abandoned.
This was not new. Babies were often left out by humans who either could not provide for another child or did not want one. Such babies were taken as meals by hairier mortal creatures, or had their lives stolen by the elements of Nature. This child was unfortunate but he would meet his end soon.
Except he didn’t. The baby continued to cry and cry and nothing was done about it. Deshi scanned the area around the child and found no threats to his survival, though there were also no saviours either. The wails of distress rang through Deshi, piercing its core and tugging on the matter that made up the Spirit. The baby’s face turned red and then purple as he screamed for a help that would never come. His tiny hands balled into fists, a vein throbbed on his head. He needed help.
Deshi checked that Etanah was definitely not in the Earth’s orbit. It was rare for the other Spirits to come out this way and when they did, they didn’t stay long. Deshi would not have witnesses for the act it was about to commit. It rose from its position on the edge of the Earth. With one last look around at the stars, it dove forwards and plunged to the Earth and the baby.

Though the Spirits had agreed upon the Rules, none of them had ever thought to break any of them. That was, until the day of my birth.

Friday, 18 September 2015

I'm a university graduate now

When I was sixteen I remember turning up to one of my English Lit classes, throwing myself into my chair and demanding to know "what's the point of university anyway?".

I almost didn't go to university, but I'm glad I did. Not because of the anxiety it caused, the way I started judging my self-worth based on my grades or the dull endless books I had to slog through. I'm glad I did because I met some amazing people who shared those tortuous three years; they made my sentence bearable. It felt so good to share my graduation day with these same people - it was like a celebration of all we'd been through together. Plus dorky hats.

I arrived early to collect my tickets and was ushered into a room full of hats and gowns where I was to wait for somebody to 'dress' me. That's right, there were hired professionals who knew exactly how to place the robe over my body so it draped just right and would not let me leave until they were satisfied with the way I looked. This is me immediately after being 'dressed':