Choosing a direction

I've come to a point in my life where I realised I have no life plan. "I want to write books" just doesn't cut it any more  I don't have a job, so I'm not earning anything. I live in my mum's house, so I have no real independence.

My future plans are incredibly vague. Finish my degree, then go to New York for a year. I have no idea what I'll do there, of course, besides visit family and see the sights.

I don't even know what sort of books I want to write. Someone asked me last week and I had no answer. None! I was at a complete loss for words, and it didn't feel good. Although, I've been thinking about it a lot since and have come up with a target reader (teenagers), but that's all. In my opinion, that isn't a lot and it certainly isn't enough.

I want to write fantasy, but have recently been delving into crime and I have an urban fiction story in the works. I also plan to write my family history this summer - I suppose realistically I could do all of these. I just wish instead of spreading myself out, I could concentrate on one genre and really work on that. But I've never been good at sticking to one thing. I quit karate after seven years, the recorder after three, and ballet after one class. Heck, I could probably write a book on all the things I've quit (haha, oh the humour...)!

Needless to say, I lack persistence.

I suppose that as I experience new things, my path will reveal itself to me. At least, I hope it will. If it doesn't, I'll just go with the flow. I could always try to become a teacher (please, no). What I'm trying to say is that just because I have bullet points of what I want to do, it's not enough for me to actually stand up and say "yes, I know what I'm going to do with my life". I wish it was. I could try to work something out, but really at this point in my life I don't think I know enough to make a decision.

Also, if it takes me three months (and counting) to figure out the plot for my crime series, I have serious doubts that I'll be able to mould my life plan in the next ten minutes.

Because who hasn't been there, right?